Post by Rowena Jones on Feb 14, 2020 0:22:24 GMT -5
It was dark. So dark. She held her hand in front of her face, wriggled her fingers. Saw nothing. The cold air caressed her face in a mocking attempt at comfort even as her eyes widened, desperately seeking some light by which to see something… anything.
And all the while there was a heat inside her. Starting in her belly, a hot white burn that intensified as it began to crawl up. Up through her chest, scorching her lungs with every breath. Panic coursed through her brain as it tried to make sense of the impossible. What was this? What would happen when that painful, awful heat escaped? It burned her throat and still she couldn’t see and now her back arched with the pain, her body contorting in a futile effort to escape the inescapable torture.
And then it was there, in her mouth and her ears and her eyes. Bright terrible light, the sound of thunder and screaming ringing in her ears and the unmistakable tang of death in the air. She’d closed her eyes against the pain, but now they opened, desperate to make sense of the situation.
The world was on fire. She was on fire.
She screamed.
And awoke to twisted sheets, sweat-chilled skin and her curtains in flame. Heart still racing, Rowena Jones rushed to the bathroom and grabbed the bucket she kept for such occasions, returning to her room and dousing the curtains with a splash. She collapsed back onto her bed, sobs wracking her body. It didn’t matter how much time had passed… she didn’t think she’d ever escape the memories of the War.
She waited for the tears to slow and her heart rate to calm, before taking a deep breath and sitting back up. She rubbed at her wet cheeks in a pointless attempt to forget the fact that it was going to be yet another sleepless night. The steady drip drip drip of the ruined curtains was her only companion as she drifted silently around the room, stripping her bedsheets and wrapping a thick wool robe around her still shaking body.
She left the room without looking in the large mirror, not wanting to face the consequences of restless nights. Her footsteps were joined by the soft padding of a large marmalade coloured cat and as they approached the kitchen, another set of more excitable paws. Despite earlier events, a soft smile briefly flitted across the witch’s face as she reached down to pick up her newest companion, a dusky white ball of fluff she’d called Yeti. Her attempts at a hug were greeted by soft meows and sharp kitten teeth, and Rowena allowed herself a few seconds of comfort before continuing resolutely to the kitchen.
Five minutes later she had a hot cup of chocolate in hand, rocking softly in her porch swing, gazing across a quiet dew covered field, illuminated by the soft glow of the moon. It was such a contrast to her fire filled nightmare that her breath caught. Despite her frustration at her lack of sleep, she found herself somewhat grateful that it allowed her the peace of these moments. For just a short while she could pretend nothing had changed. She could be just a witch with her familiars contemplating the twinkling stars and universe around her. During the day, it was all too apparent that everything was different. Despite the year that had passed, she still hadn’t gained true control over her magic. Simple spells still eluded her, powerful spells were amplified to the point of being dangerous… No. During the day, surrounded by people and their expectations, it was all too obvious that the War had broken her irreparably. It was only her reputation that kept her in society at all, that meant that she still had a job...
Rowena sighed as she pulled out her wand. Useless piece of wood. Just the other day, she’d been so caught up in her research that when a nurse had grabbed her and hastily pointed at a patient, she hadn’t thought twice. Her wand had been in hand, the words leaving her lips to fix the man’s ailment before she’d realized what she was doing. The actions of a Healer who’d been working for years. It should have been an easy fix… but of course her magic had decided otherwise and while he’d been better, she’d let out a pained gasp that luckily no one had noticed. She had had to wave off his thanks and rush back to her office. The blood had stained her shirt by the time she’d arrived, the large cut her magic had inflicted spreading from rib to hip. Thank Merlin for Potions, she’d thought to herself, knowing better than to try to use her wand again.
Pumpkin’s meow called her attention to the present once more and as she glanced at her feline companion, her gaze caught the Daily Prophet that she’d tossed out in her earlier frustration. Blazed across the front cover was a familiar face and she found herself scowling once more as she picked it up.
Max Kameren. The man she would have died for. Ducking away from the reporters, and with him another person. A decidedly female person. Rowena couldn’t tell who it was, nor where they had been spotted, nor could she understand why it bothered her so.
The War had damaged a lot of things. They’d tried. They really had and they hadn’t failed. Not completely. There was too much between them to walk away from. But they’d also been through so much and so quickly that it always felt like there was a minefield of expectations and pressure around every step. The world had been watching them. The media had hounded them and over the last year, neither one of them had really known how to deal with that. So they’d stayed in this sort of limbo. They could still enjoy each other’s company, Rowena would never tire of Max’s wit and the comfort he brought her… and she hoped it was the same for him. At the same time, they both had a life that for some reason they’d kept separate from the bubble of ‘them’.
The witch sighed, throwing the paper to the floor once more and throwing herself back in the chair. Maybe it was nothing. Maybe he’d bring it up next time they saw each other… it had been a few days. Maybe she should call him. Her fingers had found her phone and clicked call before she remembered it was a stupid hour of the night and she hastily cancelled it.
“Urgh! I’m pathetic,” Rowena muttered into the night. “What am I doing Pumpkin?” she asked but the cat had already prowled to the field, a small white shadow behind her as she stalked a rodent. A loud sigh. “Sleeping draft it is then,” she concluded standing up.
And all the while there was a heat inside her. Starting in her belly, a hot white burn that intensified as it began to crawl up. Up through her chest, scorching her lungs with every breath. Panic coursed through her brain as it tried to make sense of the impossible. What was this? What would happen when that painful, awful heat escaped? It burned her throat and still she couldn’t see and now her back arched with the pain, her body contorting in a futile effort to escape the inescapable torture.
And then it was there, in her mouth and her ears and her eyes. Bright terrible light, the sound of thunder and screaming ringing in her ears and the unmistakable tang of death in the air. She’d closed her eyes against the pain, but now they opened, desperate to make sense of the situation.
The world was on fire. She was on fire.
She screamed.
And awoke to twisted sheets, sweat-chilled skin and her curtains in flame. Heart still racing, Rowena Jones rushed to the bathroom and grabbed the bucket she kept for such occasions, returning to her room and dousing the curtains with a splash. She collapsed back onto her bed, sobs wracking her body. It didn’t matter how much time had passed… she didn’t think she’d ever escape the memories of the War.
She waited for the tears to slow and her heart rate to calm, before taking a deep breath and sitting back up. She rubbed at her wet cheeks in a pointless attempt to forget the fact that it was going to be yet another sleepless night. The steady drip drip drip of the ruined curtains was her only companion as she drifted silently around the room, stripping her bedsheets and wrapping a thick wool robe around her still shaking body.
She left the room without looking in the large mirror, not wanting to face the consequences of restless nights. Her footsteps were joined by the soft padding of a large marmalade coloured cat and as they approached the kitchen, another set of more excitable paws. Despite earlier events, a soft smile briefly flitted across the witch’s face as she reached down to pick up her newest companion, a dusky white ball of fluff she’d called Yeti. Her attempts at a hug were greeted by soft meows and sharp kitten teeth, and Rowena allowed herself a few seconds of comfort before continuing resolutely to the kitchen.
Five minutes later she had a hot cup of chocolate in hand, rocking softly in her porch swing, gazing across a quiet dew covered field, illuminated by the soft glow of the moon. It was such a contrast to her fire filled nightmare that her breath caught. Despite her frustration at her lack of sleep, she found herself somewhat grateful that it allowed her the peace of these moments. For just a short while she could pretend nothing had changed. She could be just a witch with her familiars contemplating the twinkling stars and universe around her. During the day, it was all too apparent that everything was different. Despite the year that had passed, she still hadn’t gained true control over her magic. Simple spells still eluded her, powerful spells were amplified to the point of being dangerous… No. During the day, surrounded by people and their expectations, it was all too obvious that the War had broken her irreparably. It was only her reputation that kept her in society at all, that meant that she still had a job...
Rowena sighed as she pulled out her wand. Useless piece of wood. Just the other day, she’d been so caught up in her research that when a nurse had grabbed her and hastily pointed at a patient, she hadn’t thought twice. Her wand had been in hand, the words leaving her lips to fix the man’s ailment before she’d realized what she was doing. The actions of a Healer who’d been working for years. It should have been an easy fix… but of course her magic had decided otherwise and while he’d been better, she’d let out a pained gasp that luckily no one had noticed. She had had to wave off his thanks and rush back to her office. The blood had stained her shirt by the time she’d arrived, the large cut her magic had inflicted spreading from rib to hip. Thank Merlin for Potions, she’d thought to herself, knowing better than to try to use her wand again.
Pumpkin’s meow called her attention to the present once more and as she glanced at her feline companion, her gaze caught the Daily Prophet that she’d tossed out in her earlier frustration. Blazed across the front cover was a familiar face and she found herself scowling once more as she picked it up.
Max Kameren. The man she would have died for. Ducking away from the reporters, and with him another person. A decidedly female person. Rowena couldn’t tell who it was, nor where they had been spotted, nor could she understand why it bothered her so.
The War had damaged a lot of things. They’d tried. They really had and they hadn’t failed. Not completely. There was too much between them to walk away from. But they’d also been through so much and so quickly that it always felt like there was a minefield of expectations and pressure around every step. The world had been watching them. The media had hounded them and over the last year, neither one of them had really known how to deal with that. So they’d stayed in this sort of limbo. They could still enjoy each other’s company, Rowena would never tire of Max’s wit and the comfort he brought her… and she hoped it was the same for him. At the same time, they both had a life that for some reason they’d kept separate from the bubble of ‘them’.
The witch sighed, throwing the paper to the floor once more and throwing herself back in the chair. Maybe it was nothing. Maybe he’d bring it up next time they saw each other… it had been a few days. Maybe she should call him. Her fingers had found her phone and clicked call before she remembered it was a stupid hour of the night and she hastily cancelled it.
“Urgh! I’m pathetic,” Rowena muttered into the night. “What am I doing Pumpkin?” she asked but the cat had already prowled to the field, a small white shadow behind her as she stalked a rodent. A loud sigh. “Sleeping draft it is then,” she concluded standing up.